Are we only here to pay bills and die?

It is easy to get into a groove of endlessly going through your to-do list day after day without considering what it is you really want.  We are all conditioned from an early age to get a good job that will pay the bills.  Many times we aren't considering what we want, and instead are only focused on staying afloat.  Survival instincts are great and we need them but the whole point of our existence is not solely for survival.  If you have a desire for something, such as a healthy body and weight, that longing doesn't come from a survival point of view.  Therefore, if we want it, we have the capacity to have it; it is a matter of tapping into that higher knowledge.  
It has been said that the path to success isn't a perfectly straight line.  There are curves, ups and downs, and obstacles that we must face along the way.  It often feels like the scariest thing we could ever imagine to take on and having faith that it all works out for our growth and development isn't always easy.
With that said, the path not clearly defined is less traveled for a reason and basically that internal voice to have what you deserve has to be loud enough for you to begin taking steps.  I have heard it takes 10 years to become an over night success.  It is easy to look at someone else and devise a very convincing story of how and why they have what they have and why you don't and never will have it. 
Coming out of the mental fog you have been "surviving" in  for all of these years is a step by step process.  Resistance will come up and is part of the process; seeing everything as an opportunity for growth, and thereby another stepping stone on your journey, is a change in perspective that will help you stay the path.  In the beginning, it is tempting and easy to turn around and slide right back into old patterns.  If those patterns are making you miserable enough to want real change in your life then your unconscious mind will lead you to where you need to start.  "When the student is ready, the teacher will appear." 

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